I weighed in on saturday instead of friday. I lost a whole whopping pound. Yeah, ONE pound. A measly fucking pound. I got on the scale a few times as I was in such disbelief that it was only a pound. I was SURE the scale was broken. I even checked it, but nope. ONE pound. WTF-F-F!!!!!! I think I would have rather just have not lost anything at all. Forgive me if you're thinking I'm ungrateful, but to me, a one pound loss is like expecting that 15-20% tip after busting your ass and instead you get a 5% tip - it's like a slap in the face. I don't know why the loss was so small this weigh-in. It could be because I had my "gift" last week and was bloated and such. The lymph nodes in my neck are swollen on both sides (Dr figures I'm fighting off something and I have had a sore throat all week) and maybe that is causing my body to hold onto calories? Who knows. I am really hoping that next week's loss is larger. I am having anxiety that somehow sleevie is no longer working, that I have maxed out my weight loss that I have yet again, failed at this too. A part of me is telling myself that I'm not being logical, that sleevie is working and this is all part of the process in which I need to be patient. However, another part of me is insisting that I have fucked this up too, that I have failed, just like I knew I always would. Enough of my self pity party, I'm signing off now.
I weighed in on saturday instead of friday. I lost a whole whopping pound. Yeah, ONE pound. A measly fucking pound. I got on the scale a few times as I was in such disbelief that it was only a pound. I was SURE the scale was broken. I even checked it, but nope. ONE pound. WTF-F-F!!!!!! I think I would have rather just have not lost anything at all. Forgive me if you're thinking I'm ungrateful, but to me, a one pound loss is like expecting that 15-20% tip after busting your ass and instead you get a 5% tip - it's like a slap in the face. I don't know why the loss was so small this weigh-in. It could be because I had my "gift" last week and was bloated and such. The lymph nodes in my neck are swollen on both sides (Dr figures I'm fighting off something and I have had a sore throat all week) and maybe that is causing my body to hold onto calories? Who knows. I am really hoping that next week's loss is larger. I am having anxiety that somehow sleevie is no longer working, that I have maxed out my weight loss that I have yet again, failed at this too. A part of me is telling myself that I'm not being logical, that sleevie is working and this is all part of the process in which I need to be patient. However, another part of me is insisting that I have fucked this up too, that I have failed, just like I knew I always would. Enough of my self pity party, I'm signing off now.
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